General:
Gender: Female
Hometown: Profound Blue Ocean
Interest: Arts
Social:
Seeking for: True Friend
Relationship status: Married
Professional Information:
Occupation: Daughter, Sister, Friend, Soulmate, Mother, Aunt
Industry: Non-Profit Management
God has so much special love
for beings,
but as for me,
-the silence
N
the emptiness
is so great-
that I look but dont see,
-listen but dont hear.
for beings,
but as for me,
-the silence
N
the emptiness
is so great-
that I look but dont see,
-listen but dont hear.
Lord,My dear God,
who am I
that YOU should forsake me?
The one
that YOU love
now
has become
the most hated one,
the one YOU have thrown away
as unwanted,
unloved?
I call.
I cling.
I want.
yet there is no answer.
No one on whom I can cling.
No, not one.
-Alone.
Where is my faith?
Even deep down right in there is nothing
but emptiness
N darkness.
My God,
how painful is this unknown pain.
I have no faith.
I dare not utter the words
N thoughts that crowd in my heart..
It makes me suffer intold agony,
so many unanswered Qs live within me;
I am afraid to uncover them
because of the blasphemy if there be God...
Please forgive me
when I try to raise my thoughts to heaven,
there is such convicting emptiness
that those very thoughts return like sharp knives
N hurt my very soul.
I am told God loves me
but yet the reality of darkness
N coldness
N emptiness is so great
that nothing touches my soul.
Did I make a mistake
in surrendering blindly
to the call of the sacred heart?
Please tell me,why
there is so much pain
N darkness
in my soul?
