dont know wht

Feat. Song by Maria Mena: Just hold me


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The must have thing I find in my mind:
But I am incapable of killing it,
The big hole I find in my heart:
But I am unable of filling it,
These yearnings that are in my soul:
But it doesn't stop its chills..
Oh, How I wonder all these secretives appear,
But I don’t bother to recognize either.
For the thing that I certain:
I want to cure this pain,
I want to close this curtain,
I want to solve this restraint.
I wish I knew why this feeling makes me so sad,
When I turn into the darkness side in me.
I ask myself if I’m content.
And my head says yes, But my heart says no.

Oh yess, I do Love life,
but What is it that my heart secretly yearning?

This poem I wrote remembering when I get the very first taste of love.
At that time I was very confused and didn't know what was going on with me......
Now I know and frankly speaking:
I hate the real feeling of love..